What do you do?

When It feels like the whole goddamn world is against you?
I can't do everything, but at the same time I can't do anything.
I don't understand why It has come to this...
I haven't thought about suicide since mom and dad...
But now, I think about it everyday.
Everyday how I cannot do anything with my life.
I'm stuck. no where to go.
But all I ever do while I'm stuck here is fuck it all up for everyone.
I just don't know what to do...
Moma thinks I'm depressed. I probably am.
Dad can't do a goddamned thing because he's all the way in dreamland in Seattle...
I stress people out to the point of screaming, cussing, yelling, fighting, leaving.
What can I do right???