New Home?

So I'm pretty sure I just moved to Seattle!
Me and Wade came to visit for about a month. Well Wade did anyway. I came out here to see if I could get a job and a place of my own. Ry is pretty happy for me to be out here too. But I'm basicaly scared as hell.
My game plan, well me and Ry's game plan is for me to get a place going for us out here and then he's going to come later. Can you believe it? Ryan is actually seriously going to come out here to be with me! I never thought he would, I always thought we'd end up going our separate ways because he wouldn't want to be very far from home. But after many long discussions, I now know that is not the case. I'm pretty excited despite the fact that I'm going to have to get out of my safety zone and experience this big city by myself. I'm scared....too scared lol

Ouch

Ok, I didn't get drunk last night. I just got tipsy and it was very fun. Kaitlyn was laughing at me and she said I was funny and I just had a good time. The only bad thing is Ry is pretty pissed at me and I'm so scared of what he is going to say to me today. He didn't call me this morning like he usually does and I called him last night when I was all dizzy and shit an]d he could tell something was wrong/different and he got upset but Kaitlyn told me to hang up that I didn't need to fight with him so I did. and he left this long ass you know what fucking forget it. I'm moving to seattle by the end of summer. Gonna drive my good ol' focus and have me a fucking good time dammit...
This is the best shot from Hope's shoot

Gone again

well, he's gone again. My father that is. you know the last time I saw him before these past two weeks, was at christmas. It's been four months since I've seen him. And you know what the funny thing is? The thing that I just can't seem to understand? No matter how hard I try; no matter what perspective I try to put this in, I still just cannot fathom WHY it appears to be so easy for him to go out there and stay there? How can he just do that? According to grandma going out and living in Seattle is like his hideaway, his run to place. His GETAWAY. Countless times he tells me that being in this old house reminds him of his "failure" and he can't stand the memories. Well guess what, me, kailey, and austin all have had to face the memories, face the sleepless nights, face it all by ourselves. Each one of us had to face that heartbreaking monster on our own and mom and dad just can't do it. Especially dad. He owns this house and he can't face it and overcome it like we did.
He's supposed to get married to her soon. His girlfriend Cristi I mean. You can count me out of that happy little marriage thank you very much.
Oh yeah! And you can count me out of college too. lol I'm not going.

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what kind of fucking photographer am I supposed to BE if my fucking computer won't even let me upload any damn photos! It's always me! always me! nothing for me has ever worked when it comes to owning and operating a computer. My computers have always crashed, therefore losing all of my data, or it won't operate up to my basic needs and standards. I mean WHY me?????! My stupid dell that dad got for me two christmas' ago was running off of ubuntu linux which was fine if I just wanted to surf the web and not watch youtube, well then I became interested in photography and I need just a BIT more space than the lame twenty five GB that my dell had. So my gracious mother who had a 75 GB toshiba switched with me so I could have the space that she wasn't using whenever she got on facebook. All that was fine until one day the ol' dell decides to quite working. So mom of course CLAIMS that she CANNOT be without a computer and takes hostage "my" toshiba which technically was hers, but we made a trade so technically it was mine ?
Anyway, I've been laptopless for like a whole month. My father who has been in Seattle since the stone ages practically, comes home for a visit and tries to revive this stupid dell that my friends greg and lee failed miserably to fix. well he can't get windows back on there so he puts the inevitable Ubuntu back on here. Great! It browses the internet, it's fast and it doesn't have annoying pop ups. fine. mom can keep the already virus ridden toshiba for all I care. I finally have a laptop. I can finally catch up on my photography work. no no. Not for me. Not for hannah tolbert. No, this dell decides that it is NOT going to open or identify my external hard drive that has all my pictures and information on it. My dad tires to install some sort of driver only to come to the realization that it isn't possible because a monkey in brazil was taking a shit at that time. Fine. I'll figure that one out on my own later. So I thought to myself, I'll just upload some photos directly off of my SD card thats in my nikon. I convert the SD card through a USB conversion device and whaddayaknow? IT WON'T FECKING IDENTIFY THAT EITHER! So unless some very strong beings come over here and force this hammer out of my hands, there's going to be bits of dell laptop all over my room...

Photography Gig!

Yay for me! I have a photography gig Sunday afternoon with one of my co-workers. I'm just going to do a regular portrait session and get prints from snapfish for her. Hopefully all will go well I will definitely put some of the better ones up once I get them.
I've been doing some research on how to get better outdoor portraits (we're going to Kalmia Gardens) and I'm pretty excited about what I've learned. I'm very confident we'll walk away with some great shots.

NEVERMIND

haha, I finished the Twilight Series and I've changed my mind. It was completely lame and butchered and unfinished and an annoyance to readers world wide. there I'm done.

Twilight

Ah yes. I didn't think it would happen, but hell did it happen.
I read the first Twilight book, and saw the horrible movie.
I thought the book was very cute/nice and it certainly held my attention for the two short days it took me to read it.
Not that anyone cares, but I left my video camera at home so I can't do a video entry on my twilight rant so you get to hear it :D
Anyway, like I said I enjoyed the book and I thought it had a great love plot to it(?) however unless I took breaks from it I got really agitated with the character Bella (like so many other readers that I've been reading about) and how the story was written. It may or may not sound cocky, but back when I would attempt to write stories or whatever just as a hobby I usually would just delete it before "finishing" it because I hated my writing style. As soon as I got used to the flow of Stepanie Meyer's writing style did I realize it was very similar to mine and I got really annoyed with it. lol.
I talked to a bunch of people at work who saw me reading the book and they would comment on how great the movie was so I got really hyped to see it because lets face it, I'm not really a movie type of person. I just can't sit through a movie like I used to. Anyway, as soon as I finished the book my friend rented it and her and a few friends sat down to watch it.
I was very disappointed.
I felt like the whole thing was completely butchered, and rushed through at an unnecessary fast pace. Almost as if the director's whole purpose in producing this movie was giving the oh so gorgeous Robert Pattinson sexy scenes to remember him by. Everything else was just terrible.
Kristen Stewert portrayed Bella as an even more annoying uncoordinated doofus than the book did! Her acting really came across as poor to me, but now that I think about it, maybe it was the fact that all the "important" scenes were all smooshed together in an unattractive way making it almost impossible to get really passionate in the "passionate" scenes.
So I don't really want to bash her, she managed to make me aggrivated with Bella just like in the book.
Anyway, I think that's all I want to say, I haven't blogged in a while so I don't think I presented this in a very clear professional way. Oh well, there's only two people following my blog anyway :D